I don’t have words eloquent enough to excuse my actions. That’s because there is no excuse.
I’ve been avoiding you all because I feel like I’m a terrible person. No, because I am a terrible person. I like to convince myself that I’m well-adjusted and socially apt but I’m not. This all proves it. So, rather than just accept this, I hide from it. I hide from all of you, people who care about me. I’ve convinced myself that you would be better off not nowing me at all; since I can’t do that, I try to disappear completely. It’s worked in the past. Mostly, I’ve realized, because no one cared enough to look.
This is new to me. And instead of owning up to it, I flee further into cowardice and avoidance because I’m too much of a coward to face anyone. I’ve been avoiding. I’ve been afraid of what might happen if I revealed it, so I just hide some more. A real adult way of handling my problems, I know. I just don’t know any other way. Not an excuse, though. There are no excuses.
Dirk calling out Jake? That hit me hard. Really hard, actually, and for reasons I’m sure are obvious. Obviously not hard enough for me to be responsible and own up to it, but… no buts. I just didn’t do it.
So I’m sorry. I’m sorry I caused you all to worry. I’m sorry I’ve been a shitty friend and person in general. I’m ashamed of myself for having done this for so long. Every time I’d want to say something, I stop myself and try to convince myself that everything’s okay. It never was. I needed someone to call me out, slap me hard across the face. I’m pathetic, and a coward. And I’m afraid to go back.
I can’t ask for forgiveness, because I don’t deserve it. I’m not saying that out of a need for pity, I’m saying it out of deep shame for waiting so long. I just want to say I’m sorry.
Oh man, my mom and grandma are arguing politics and religion and it’s all very terrible.
A friendly reminder that I’m not dead. Busy, yes, but not dead.
Ralph’s not bad, he’s just programmed that way.
when tumblr users are enormous assholes and everyone worships the ground they walk on anyway
when characters are enormous assholes and everyone worships the ground they walk on anyway
How we know the next update will be.
It’s not teal green.
Hey Guys, (and by “guys” I mean cisgenders, transgenders, gays, lesbians, bi-sexuals, straights, Lithuanians, Converted-Catholics etc….hope the generally used term “guys” isn’t offensive ) -
The reason that I deleted the negative posts from my blog yesterday was NOT because I was sorry. I deleted them because they were pure negativity and I can’t believe I actually felt the need to DEFEND myself for a stupid Justin Bieber joke from 3 months ago…or the so-called “ableist/racist” joke:
“I got your back!” -Siamese Twins
Listen…I have friends and followers of all colors, sizes, genders, creeds and abilities and I’m truly proud to know them…and as a former theater geek, I would venture to say that I may actually have MORE gay friends than straight ones as well as a transgender family member that is celebrated and embraced
Wanna know what all of these people have in common? A SENSE OF HUMOR!!!!
Tumblr is my “happy place”! I log on to escape the day to day crap, tell dumb jokes, attend prom on Tiny Chat, and fangirl with the best of them! I AM A NICE PERSON.
Not one of my stupid posts has EVER been mean-spirited or targeted ANY group of people in a nasty way.
The “SJWs” on the other hand have called me horrible names, made malicious accusations (I never called gay people one-armed iguanas…and when I used the term “normal people” I was referring to the 99% of Tumblr without a bug up it’s ass!!!), and have blogs that spew more hate and vitriol than I’ve ever witnessed on the internet…and as a person who enjoys reading YouTube comments…. that’s saying A LOT!
This whole thing is really sad because I truly believe that a lot of these people started out with the best of intentions. Unfortunately, in so VICIOUSLY defending their beliefs against so-called bigots and transphobes like me (and TINA FEY!!!??? Seriously!!!!) they have actually BECOME the very sort of people they think they’re fighting against.
The only hate that I truly hold in my heart is for BULLIES and that is what you people are.
This is the last time I’ll be addressing this nonsense. Everyone is getting sick of it and I’m no exception.
Think about spreading love and laughter from now on. It’s much more powerful than hate (plus you’d probably get WAY more followers!!!!)
P.S. My Mexican, ex-fruit picker, gramma who raised me on a factory worker’s salary and public assistance is mad that you guys keep calling me a “rich white girl” (I’m a rich Chicana!!!!)
She says what we’re all thinking!
gifwich appears to be dropping bank this debate. I don’t think I’ve seen another feature since today’s started.